Blur

That would be life lately, a big blur. Okay so I will start this post with a confession. We have On Demand and one of my guilty pleasures is watching episodes of Sex and the City. Yes I know some of you are rolling your eyes in disgust. Go ahead all my intellectual friends, get the scoffing out of your system.... but I like the show and I've watched every episode at least once season 1 - 4. Its always interesting how when Carrie is writing her column she comes up with all these witty ponderings about sex and relationships and I think "if I were a writer I would never make it because it would be so boring". People always say write what you know but what do I know that would actually interest people? How to be a soccer mom in training? Or how to alienate women and scare the crap out of men with my "Army personality"? Thats pretty much it these days. I think I will stick to my current profession because that I am good at even if I had to write about it, it would most definitely suck. I do miss my artistic side though. I used to like to write and draw and sing and do all of that stuff. I am a pisces and that is just how we are. I haven't done alot of that in a long time. Even though I go to college I don't really think I'm in touch with my creative or my intellectual side anymore which is sad. If I had one wish for the coming year (yeah I know, way too early for new years resolutions) it would be to start doing the things I used to love again and really embrace my inner nerd. I know underneath all the stress and the daily grind there is just a really big dork waiting to come out and I think its about time to let her.
Anyway in family happenings I think I finally convinced Chris to start college. He is becoming more and more disenchanted with his job and I have repeatedly told him that the degree in the field he wants to get in to is where our financial security will be (he wants to do computer programming/networking). I will be done with my BA in Human Resource Management next fall and should I choose to look for another job I might find one that will bring in slightly more than what I make now but if he goes from being a cable guy to the programming field he will double his salary right off the bat.
We are still considering a move to NY although there are so many obstacles we would have to overcome, the biggest being what would we do about this house? I personally would want to rent it out because once it is paid off it will be extra income coming in for us. Chris wants to just cut sling, take our losses and move on. I don't see us being able to do that because if we do that we will be moving with debt hanging over our heads. We have already managed to run both our credit cards up quite high and its going to take all of our tax money just to pay those off.
At least I have the college paid off now and will be able to start school on the 20th like I'm supposed to. Unfortunately, two of my books for my classes were over $100 and because they are brand spankin new additions I couldn't find them cheaper anywhere else. I did find one of my books on EBAY for $88 and I won it but the chick's listing said she accepted paypal and I paid her with my paypal buyer credit account but then she denied the payment and sent me an email saying I had to send her payment a different way. This totally baffles me and I have never had it happen before. If she wants me to pay through paypal with one of my credit cards then what is the difference between doing this and paying with the paypal buyer credit account? I pay for almost all of my purchases from EBAY with paypal buyer credit. So now I have to pull $88 out of my ass to pay this chick. Its like life sticks a really big boot in your ass and just when you finish surgically removing it, life has another really big boot to stick in your ass to replace that one.
I have been worrying alot about our financial situation lately and it is really stressing me out to the point of getting migraines and losing sleep. In fact after this post I am sitting down to make out a budget for the next month or so to see if we can get going in the right direction again. We just have so many things that we need to pay for and never enough money to do it. Things in our house need fixing, I need to get my car fixed, I need to get all three of our cats neutered (my meows are getting so big!!), plus I still haven't received all the statements from the insurance companies about my surgery so I don't know if that was fully covered yet. In good news though, it looks like my insurance which I had originally thought was a craptacular policy covered $1200 of it but they said the anesthesia wasn't covered. Chris' insurance covered my crutches but I'm waiting to see if they cover the anesthesia bill and if now that will be almost $600 we will owe out.
Also in other news by some miracle Chris managed to get a couple of days for vacation for x-mas so we are going to NY (I guess I can stop calling his boss the grinch who stole x-mas now) but we will have to drive since we can't afford the $1,300 airfare to fly there. We are planning on taking the route through the states and stopping overnight in Erie, PA and then continuing on our merry way. Not fun to take a 13 hr trip with a toddler but we really have no choice. Well it is getting late and I have budgeting to do.