Just skippy ..

Weight loss since Jun 3rd: 6 lbs down (morning dry weight)

School: Going better than thought. This teacher is more lenient on tardiness than others so I may actually pass this class after dropping it several times in the past.

Motherhood: Boy is being a turd. Going through the not listening phase and no amount of reasoning/discipline/bribery seems to be working to get him back on track.

Work: STRESSFUL. Major inspection in one week followed by visit/inspection by VIPs the following week. Am NOT ready at all and I have to help the other locations get ready as well.

Home Life: Eh. He pisses me off. We fight. We reach a truce. I piss him off. We fight. We reach a truce. He's addicted to computer games which he plays with the friend of his I detest in NY. This is starting to become a real issue because he prefers to spend more time downstairs at his computer than with us. Like a true nerd, I take my solace in books. Wish we had the same priorities so things would not be so difficult here. No one ever said marriage was easy......

On the dad front: difficult as always. I worry about him. I am torn between the need to take care of him because there is no one else and the need to live my life. I'm pretty much in limbo indefinitely.

Friends: Carpooling w/Kev is over, joyous as it was. He will have to find a new arch nemesis and I will have to find someone elses car to drop cheerios in. Need to see Liz soon. We had planned to ages ago before boy burned his feet and haven't rescheduled yet. Writing a eulogy for K as I have not heard from her in quite some time and have assumed the cats made quick work of her and her skeletal remains are lying somewhere in her apartment waiting for S to discover them.

Sleep: Deprived, obviously, or this post would not exist.......

The #3 Stall

It just occurred to me the other day that I am such a creature of habit. I am destined to turn into one of those old people that like things just so and have a monstrous fit when something is out of place. The reason I say this is I realized the other day I have a preferred stall in the bathroom at work. There are three and if its open I usually take the one all the way to the right. I have no idea why but I always go for this stall and I actually get mad when someone else is in there. And then I realized I do this with alot of things. I tend to order the same drink at Starbucks. I read the same types of books. I can go days eating the same foods. And the thing is I don't get bored with it. The only thing that bores me is I am not free to do stuff in general like travel due to lack of fundage/time/babysitter.

Funny I never realized before now how much I like my routine and everything to be in its place.....

Ugh...

I had quite the busy day. My bosses boss came to the area to do inspections and visit so the 9 million or so phone calls he normally gets came to me instead. Also we had to do an inventory of our personnel. Its not hard. They send me a list of names, I have everyone verify their info is correct, they initial next to their name and they send back. Monkeys could do this but apparently recruiters can not because one station sent it back to me with missing pages and another one decided not to send it to me until literally TWO minutes before I had to send it back up. Not to mention that everyone that is not there to sign it because they are on vacation/in school/at home sick, I have to provide documentation proving thats where they were. Two minutes is not enough time to gather that documentation. We were an hour and a half late getting it up there because of this.

To brighten my day I get an EXTREMELY rude email from someone who bought something from me on ebay because it went outside the US and they felt they had to pay too much tax on it because of what I put on the label. I have no problem giving a partial refund because I didn't realize this would happen but the person didn't have to be so nasty about it. Seriously, if someone addressed me like that in person I would pick up the nearest object and do my best to shatter their jaw with it. Just not a good day.

I start two college courses in two days. I'm kind of looking forward to it because the classes sound interesting but kinda not because I'm sick of taking classes and this will cut into all that reading time I've had from not taking classes.

Question: Does anyone else have a family member who gets offended when they bust ass in the car with all the windows rolled up and it smells like they are rotting from the inside out and *gasp* you have the audacity to roll down the window and keep it rolled down until the smell has dissipated? Well yeah, I was deemed asshole of the year yesterday because I insisted on keeping the window rolled down.

Okay- bad day at work, crappy ebay experience, stressful college, and horrible gas. I think I'm done here.

They Like Me, They Really Like Me!

Well today was my 2nd day back at work. My coworker/friend called me on wednesday to see how I was doing and casually mentioned that "1SG was just wondering when you were coming back..." which is code for please get your ass back to work. They are going nuts with the phone calls". She also told me they got me a get well present and I'd really like it. Well today after they come back from training my boss lays a card and a little stuffed puppy dog on my desk. I'm thinking thats sweet cuz the puppy was cute. Well I go to read the card and lying underneath it was a preloaded Starbucks card. At this point I'm thinking cool, they put $5 on it for me. Well, try $105! The WHOLE company pitched in and got me a preloaded Starbucks card with a hundred and five freaking dollars on it. As Krista would say SQUEEE FREAKING SQUEEE SQUEE SQUEEEEE!
So that really brightened my day. All 55 of the people I work with have now become enablers for my addiction. :)

I decided I had to post this to remind myself next time I got on here to write about how craptacular life is, that there are some good things that happen :)

Going back to work tomorrow :I

I had my gallbladder out last friday and have been off since then. I am not scheduled to go back to work until friday but apparently they miss me and I really want to save my vacation days if I can so I am going back tomorrow. I know that I will have ALOT to catch up on and I'll probably be exhausted by noon tomorrow but I have to go back sometime. On the upside during this little bit o' time off Chris' brothers were here for a day and a half and the boy worships both of his uncles so that was fun for him. The neighbors were nice enough to make us a lasagna so Chris wouldn't have to cook dinner one night and it was really good.

I have read ALOT since I haven't been able to do much of anything else. Finished Cornwell's Warlord Chronicles which were quite good once I got into them and read the Vanishing Act of Esme Lennox and will have The Kitchen Boy finished tonight. After slogging through the warlord chronicles which were 400+ pages each I am hesitant to start any longer books because I think I am getting burnt out on reading long books. I had every intention of starting Philippa Gregory's Wideacre trilogy after the Cornwell books but just could not do it because those are 600+ pages each I think.

As far as school goes I am so tired of taking classes that I am thinking of taking six weeks of the summer off again but that will delay my graduation til next year. I had to drop my international human resources class again after I found out when the surgery was going to be because I knew I would not be able to handle two classes during all that. The one I am left with which is women's history is just boring me to tears and each night it comes time to do my homework I am finding myself putting it off until the last minute because I don't want to do it at all.

Have a few things coming up in May that I'm looking forward to. May 1-4 they are doing the Wizard of Oz at the Frauenthal and I want to go if we have the money. The saturday before Fruitport Old Fashioned Days starts they are having the annual book sale at the library so I'm going to hit that up. Then theres the three day for memorial day. Probably going to stick around town this year but more time off so yay! Also Sex and the City the movie comes out that weekend and I am going so hopefully all my surgery wounds will have healed by then and the weather will have improved and it will be a good month.

The only cloud currently raining on my parade is one of our insurance companies keeps denying just about every claim sent to them so I keep getting bombarded with medical bills. Can't wait to see what the fallout is from this surgery :(

Free to Good Home....

One gallbladder free stones included. Yep thats right. The discomfort I've been having on the right side of my body was caused by gallstones so I have to have it removed. They are supposed to be calling me by wednesday of this week with an appointment to see the surgeon and then my surgery will be scheduled at that appointment. Lucky me, this will be my 5th surgery in 5 years and the third one in the last 12 months. This was not the reason for the blood in my pee however. In addition to the futzed up gallbladder on the right, I had a small kidney stone on the left and a lower UTI so I was just all kinds of messed up. I'm finding it sad that my chief worry here is not that I have to have surgery or that it may be painful but that once again Mercy Hospital will not bill both insurances or bill them in the correct order so I will be stuck with a gynormous bill like I was for my foot surgery last july.

We did end up having to give up the idea of Vegas because we never did find anyone that was willing to go with us. The last couple we asked said they didn't want to spend the money right now which is cool. No big deal. I have learned my lesson and I will never buy one of those packages through my timeshare again. We decided that if we didn't get to go to Vegas we would visit the fam in NY instead. Well now that isn't happening either because I have to save those days I would have taken off to go to recover from my gallbladder surgery. I only have two sick days and four vacation days left until october and they told me recovery from the surgery will be between two and six weeks. Unfortunately I can only take a week off so if I have to stay home any longer than that it will be without pay and we CANNOT afford for me to do that. Hopefully I recover fast so I can go back to work. So no NY or Vegas. Instead it will be laying on my couch for a week. Oh what fun! This also means I might have to move our DC trip from September to Oct or after so I can use the two days I was saving for that for recovery also.

Also sucking for me is that the VA somehow messed up my enrollment verification for february. Apparently when I verified my enrollment in january and told them I dropped my two classes and not to pay me for that month, the dropped me from all of my classes instead of just the two I dropped. Instead of just taking me out of the classes that ran from January 3rd to Feb 13th they took me out of my classes from Jan 3rd til March 27th so when I went to verify for feb it said I had nothing to verify when in actuality I should have been able to verify enrollment from Feb 14th to Feb 29th which would have given me about $570. I am now short that much and my tuition is due March 27th. I can't start my spring quarter classes until the winter quarter is paid off and there is a fat chance the VA will get it fixed by then given that they are under budgeted and under staffed and they take forever on everything because of it.

At least I am still passing the two classes I am in now and only have this week and next to go and I have been reading alot lately which is good. I am just so bummed everything is getting messed up because I really needed some time away from here and now the next time I'll be able to have any sort of vacation is 6 - 8 months from now.

In good news though I got to hang out with Liz and Kev again. We ate awesome chinese food and went to a nice little coffee shop in GR where we played Sorry and then went back to Liz's dorm where she totally kicked my ass at cards. Didn't get home til midnight that night and got in trouble with the hubby cuz I didn't call and he was worried. That'll teach me to stay out past my curfew :)

Time for Bed. Happy St. Patrick's Day to all. Maybe this will be my lucky day. I am irish after all :)

Vegas in Limbo

Well now we don't know if we're going to Vegas or not. The people that were supposed to go cancelled on me and the ones that are considering going in their place still don't know if they are going to because they have a 7 month old baby and no one to babysit while they are gone. I don't blame them for being iffy about taking him along. I can't imagine there would be much you can do with a seven month old in Vegas. I'm still holding out hope we'll be able to go but with as much difficulty as we've been having getting someone to commit it doesn't look like its in the cards for us. Chris and I decided that if we don't end up going to Vegas we'll use the time off we put in for to drop in on the family in NY. I already put aside $600 to pay for plane tix to Vegas so if we don't go we can use that to travel to NY.
Chucky got better a few days ago, just in time for me to get sick. Hooray! Thats usually how it always works. In keeping with attack of Murphy's law for some reason either my college has their head up their bootay or the VA does because I went to certify my enrollment for february and its showing I have nothing to certify. I have been back in school since Valentines day so I should be getting a check for $570 for the 15 days in february I attended. Now I will have to wait for the college to straighten it out with the VA so I can get paid and I'm hoping this happens before March 26th because this is when the rest of my tuition is due for Winter quarter. The college will not allow me to start spring quarter without winter quarter being completely paid for. Oy vay.
I've been plugging away at the reading. I am starting book 4 on my reading list so yay for that. Sometimes there will be stretches in there where everything goes really well. I guess its just time for one of those stretches where everything doesn't. Hope it doesn't last too long :(

Egads

My break from school is over and I have started back up with my math for business and philosophy of ethics class. Here's hoping the next six weeks go smoothly :)
So the budget thing is working out fantabulously so far especially because I got a check from the VA for $200 that I wasn't expecting. This is the third paycheck since said budget was instituted and neither one of us has bought one thing we weren't supposed to. Its difficult because this year we aren't even allotting money for gifts for special occasions (i.e. birthdays, valentines, mothers/fathers day, anniversary etc)... Here's hoping we can stick to this budget until the end of the year and we'll be debt free. Hooray!

I even almost have enough money to buy our plane tickets to Vegas. The only bad thing is the couple that is supposed to be going with us might not be able to go because the wife might not be able to get the time off from work. Since this is one of those deals through my timeshare I have to bring someone to tour their resort and that is the reason I got the package so cheap so if I don't bring anyone and still go I have to pay actual cost which is a couple of grand. If I don't go I'm out the $200 I paid for the package that would have normally cost a couple of grand. I'm hoping he emails me back shortly and lets me know either way so if he can't go I have a good month to try and find another couple to go. Also I talked to my big sis the other day and she said since she wanted me to have a good time on my first trip to Vegas, that I could pick out one of the Cirque du Soleil shows and she would pay for me and chris to go. I'm really hoping this works out where we can go because I really need the mini vacation and I have been looking forward to it for months.

Been really busy at work too and have had to deal with many people doing stupid things that make my job that much more difficult. I have monday off so thats three whole days off in a row which should mean plenty of time for reading, homework and spending time with my boy.

A Challenge for me

So I ran across this site that lists all kinds of challenges related to reading and I think I'm going to do the 101 books in 1,001 days one. So if I start this tomorrow that gives me until October 10th, 2009 to read 101 books. I think I can do this. I hate it when people do these contests and count 20 page books like Green Eggs and Ham as a book so I will not count anything under 200 pages. Right now I'm in the middle of a book that is 800 pages so I will be counting that one :)

In other news I have spent the last week making up a budget for the family to get us debt free except for our mortgages in 1 years time. It is entirely feasible BUT it means we have to stick strictly to the budget and not go off it at all and since there is no room for bad things that cost money to happen I am really hoping something doesn't go wrong. Then next years fundage will be devoted to house repairs that must be made (electrical, furnace, roof etc...) and socking away three months worth of expenses for that emergency fund everyone is supposed to have. Unfortunately, although I was planning on starting my 401(k) this year, I will have to put it off until next year because I cannot find room in the budget. So heres hoping the book thing and the budget go well. I did manage to budget for the Vegas and DC trip so at least this year won't be a total bust. Time for bed.

Taking a cue from Oprah....

This is my things I love episode! Since I have taken another 6 week break from school due to the new blackboard upgrade they did over winter break sucking big smelly balls and me not being able to deal with pages not loading or taking forever, I have decided that I will get in all that reading I've been missing out on since I started college. And whats better than reading? Reading books that are free! I have rediscovered my love of the library and visited one for the first time in almost a decade (the one in Grand Haven). I don't remember it being that small. Also although I signed up for it way back in June, I just recently posted my nine required books to www.paperbackswap.com and have since spent my three initial credits and am currently waiting for the arrival of three books and have mailed out eight of my own in the past week. What a great way to get books without paying full price. However, most of the books I would really like to read have wish lists that are miles long which is the whole reason for my trip to the library. I am currently reading Anna Karenina which should keep me busy til at least the end of the week but after that I had nothing to read and I didn't want to wait until one of my wishlisted books got mailed to me so I moseyed on over to the library and picked up Mary Queen of Scots by Margaret George and Excalibur by Bernard Cornwell (Historical Fiction being my favorite genre). What I didn't realize, stupid me, was that this was the 3rd book in the series so now I have to go back and get the other two so I'm not reading them out of order. Oh well. At least I will have plenty to read and be saving a ton of money by not buying them for full price at Barnes and Noble (which I still love but I'm really trying to cut spending this year). I even got Chris on the bandwagon so now we can order his forgotten realms books at paperbackswap instead of paying $8 a pop for them at B&N.
Also on my list of things I love is the charity that I have decided I am going to invest heavily in and that is www.kiva.org. Kiva is a non-profit that lists loans that are needed by people in poorer (almost typed "pooper" there) countries to get their businesses off the ground and help them lift themselves out of poverty. You can donate as little as $25 or fund the whole loan if you're feeling extra generous. It is not a donation. It is a loan because the person you're loaning it to pays it back gradually over time and once you get back the money you loaned them you can either loan it to someone else or draw it back out and put it back in your own piggy bank. They have a very low rate of default as most of the people pay the loans back. My goal is to give $25 every month if I can. Its not a lot considering I spend at least that much on Starbucks in any given month. So far I have helped a young woman in Samoa with her ice cake business and a man in nigeria who is selling phone accessories.
And finally the last thing I love is..........SNOW TIRES! We put them on the rear of my car before we left for NY and since we've had the blizzard from hell this past weekend and its still snowing, I can really tell the difference with them on there. I know for a fact that if I had driven through that mess this morning with regular tires I would never have made it to GR with me and my car in one piece. There were six people off the road on the way there and thanks to my spiffy new tires I was NOT one of them.

RANTEDY RANT RANT

Ok, so I think the whole idea of getting a new President within the next year and the ability to play a part in that is fan-freaking-tastic. What I don't like is how certain members of my family think they have the right to influence my vote and to keep on my ass when I tell them firmly and repeatedly that I will vote for whomever the hell I want to regardless of what they think because it is my decision based on my beliefs and since I was willing to fight and die to protect my rights, one of them being to vote and live in a free democratic society, I should be able to vote for the person of my choice without being harassed about it.
I should NOT have to repeatedly defend myself about not having made a set in stone decision about who I voted for in the primaries tonight and who I will vote for in November.
So here is what the issue boils down too. The member of my family that is badgering me to death does not want me to vote for Barack Obama. Mind you, I never committed to or said I was voting for him. I said I was considering it as an option. I consider myself fortunate to be a young person in this country who can see past the racial issues and decide whether someone would make a good President based on the merit (or lack therof) of their ideas. Unfortunately, there are some members of my family who have just not made it to that point and probably won't before they go to their graves. Today I was sent that stupid email circulating about how Sen. Obama is a radical muslim and we shouldn't vote for him because he will help to destroy the US from within. It is all a big load of malarky and can be debunked simply by logging onto www.snopes.com. This person made it a point to call my place of employment and insist I take time out of my workday to read that email. In response I found the correct info on the above mentioned website and mass emailed it to everyone on that list so that they could at least make an informed decision and not one based on the pack of lies in that email.
Ya know what the kicker is? I DID NOT vote for Barack Obama this evening. Please if anyone does read this do not ask me who I did vote for because I will not tell you. Its my business. I did not even tell my husband who I voted for. The whole thing is it just makes me extremely angry that someone thinks I should cast my vote based on their ideals and their biased opinions and not recognize that I have my own set of beliefs and my own ideas about what direction this country should head in and who would be the best person to get it there. I am not anyones puppet but a free thinking human being. Secondly, the whole thing makes me sad that race is still an issue here. I don't care if the person is purple with pink polka dots. If I think they would make a good president they will get my vote. All through my life if I had an issue with someone I have never attributed their actions to their race. If I don't like you, its not because you're black or hispanic or whatever. Its because your actions (NOT race) make me think that you are a colossal asshole. Anyway, come this November, I will vote my conscience and do what I think is right and NO ONE will intimidate me or harass me to the point where I change that. Thank you ladies and gentlemen and goodnight.

No resolutions

I absolutely hate making new years resolutions because I never ever stick to them. Sure, there is a whole bunch of stuff in 2008 that I want to accomplish. Finishing college and getting our finances in order is on the top of that list. Beyond that though I make no promises to myself other than for this year to be a better year than last year.
So we went to NY over christmas which turned out to be the worst vacation ever (if you don't count that year long one in Iraq). My boy got sick and was sick for pretty much the whole time we were there. So much so that we had to delay our return by 4 days and take extra time off from work so he would be well enough to travel. Poor kid was running a fever and broke out in a rash all over his body and just did not want to eat or do anything but sleep. Turns out he had Epstein Bar virus (the one that causes mono) and a double ear infection. Besides that the visit was ok but this is one of those vacations that makes you feel like you need a vacation from your vacation. He is doing much better now though except he has a nasty cough.
At least I get to make up for the sucky vacation with a nice little trip to Las Vegas in April. I finally found someone that will be willing to sit through the timeshare presentation if it means they get their room free so yay for that. We are staying at Bally's which I've heard is smack in the middle of the strip and across from the Bellagio. Should be a fun time. Also in September I get to travel to our nations capital to hang out with my awesome friends and maybe do a bit of sightseeing. We've been meaning to do something like this for awhile only this time I actually went ahead and reserved us a condo so we're going. So far everyone is on board. Well as usual I'd like to say more but I'm exhausted. Here's hoping everyone has a stellar year :)

Insanity

Wow, I completely missed updating at all last month. Well life has been completely insane for me. My sis and her family moved in with my dad for awhile and then he got fed up with them and threw them out with next to no notice so its created quite the uncomfortable situation for me. My dad is a very vindictive person when he feels he's been wronged and I have tried to stay out of it but am caught in the middle. Every time he comes over he complains about her and every time I hear from her she complains about him. Its ridiculous really. I am SOOO sick of them badmouthing each other and so sick of hearing about it. I wish I could hole up in a secret location until the whole thing blows over.
I have actually had a lot of stress inducing things happen as of late. My foot surgery I had in July that I thought would be paid for between the two insurance companies...well it wasn't. Somehow even though I am insured through Nationwide and Blue Cross they only covered about 2/3 of it and I still owe almost $1,400 for the surgery itself plus another $175 for the anesthesia which they didn't cover. How is that possible to be covered by two insurance companies and still owe that much money??? I don't have that much to pay them so I'm going to have to set up a payment plan with them or something. Needless to say, the second surgery that I had scheduled for the 7th of this month and then rescheduled for the 29th will be postponed indefinitely. Like until I win the lottery or $2,000 falls out of the sky. Just when we think we're on the right road with our finances something else always happens. I still also have 3 cats I need to get shots for and get neutered and I have to get my car fixed before we go to NY in december.
Also I have set the goal for myself of making the President's list for college this quarter. I just finished up SOC 321-cultural diversity and MGT 114-Customer Service and got A's in both so I am half way there. Today I started two new classes: Foundations of Financial Mgmt and HRM 291- Human Resources Seminar. You would think these classes would be a good match since one looked like it might be a lot of writing and the other looked like it might be a lot of math related stuff. WRONG. Both of these classes require projects with a MINIMUM of 10 pages as the final project. I am in for 6 weeks of pure academic hell so wish me luck and pray I don't shoot myself half way through.
A few good things have happened too so it hasn't been all bad. I got to hang out with the fabulous Liz and Kevin a little while back which is something that hasn't happened in forever. I really miss my friends and I think we all pretty much let our demanding schedules get in the way of maintaining those friendships which is sad but I had an awesome time with them and hope to do it again with even more of us sometime later this month. Also the Annual Training Conference for the recruiters which admin assistants are NEVER invited to is actually allowing us to go this year. Every year they have a company party with some sort of theme friday night and then the formal dinner saturday night. The company party's theme this year is superheros/supervillians so I have to find a costume for that and I've been helping in the planning of it to try and make it awesome for the recruiters. For saturday I got an awesome burgundy colored strapless gown which I had to buy in a size 3 sizes bigger than what I actually wear so the twins would fit in it. This little outing to buy the dress prompted a return of the South Beach Diet so here's hoping I stick to it and lose some major poundage this time around.
I do have a lot more bouncing around in my head that I'd like to post but unfortunately homework beckons. The only day I don't have something due for the next six weeks is on fridays :( So TTFN

Blur

That would be life lately, a big blur. Okay so I will start this post with a confession. We have On Demand and one of my guilty pleasures is watching episodes of Sex and the City. Yes I know some of you are rolling your eyes in disgust. Go ahead all my intellectual friends, get the scoffing out of your system.... but I like the show and I've watched every episode at least once season 1 - 4. Its always interesting how when Carrie is writing her column she comes up with all these witty ponderings about sex and relationships and I think "if I were a writer I would never make it because it would be so boring". People always say write what you know but what do I know that would actually interest people? How to be a soccer mom in training? Or how to alienate women and scare the crap out of men with my "Army personality"? Thats pretty much it these days. I think I will stick to my current profession because that I am good at even if I had to write about it, it would most definitely suck. I do miss my artistic side though. I used to like to write and draw and sing and do all of that stuff. I am a pisces and that is just how we are. I haven't done alot of that in a long time. Even though I go to college I don't really think I'm in touch with my creative or my intellectual side anymore which is sad. If I had one wish for the coming year (yeah I know, way too early for new years resolutions) it would be to start doing the things I used to love again and really embrace my inner nerd. I know underneath all the stress and the daily grind there is just a really big dork waiting to come out and I think its about time to let her.
Anyway in family happenings I think I finally convinced Chris to start college. He is becoming more and more disenchanted with his job and I have repeatedly told him that the degree in the field he wants to get in to is where our financial security will be (he wants to do computer programming/networking). I will be done with my BA in Human Resource Management next fall and should I choose to look for another job I might find one that will bring in slightly more than what I make now but if he goes from being a cable guy to the programming field he will double his salary right off the bat.
We are still considering a move to NY although there are so many obstacles we would have to overcome, the biggest being what would we do about this house? I personally would want to rent it out because once it is paid off it will be extra income coming in for us. Chris wants to just cut sling, take our losses and move on. I don't see us being able to do that because if we do that we will be moving with debt hanging over our heads. We have already managed to run both our credit cards up quite high and its going to take all of our tax money just to pay those off.
At least I have the college paid off now and will be able to start school on the 20th like I'm supposed to. Unfortunately, two of my books for my classes were over $100 and because they are brand spankin new additions I couldn't find them cheaper anywhere else. I did find one of my books on EBAY for $88 and I won it but the chick's listing said she accepted paypal and I paid her with my paypal buyer credit account but then she denied the payment and sent me an email saying I had to send her payment a different way. This totally baffles me and I have never had it happen before. If she wants me to pay through paypal with one of my credit cards then what is the difference between doing this and paying with the paypal buyer credit account? I pay for almost all of my purchases from EBAY with paypal buyer credit. So now I have to pull $88 out of my ass to pay this chick. Its like life sticks a really big boot in your ass and just when you finish surgically removing it, life has another really big boot to stick in your ass to replace that one.
I have been worrying alot about our financial situation lately and it is really stressing me out to the point of getting migraines and losing sleep. In fact after this post I am sitting down to make out a budget for the next month or so to see if we can get going in the right direction again. We just have so many things that we need to pay for and never enough money to do it. Things in our house need fixing, I need to get my car fixed, I need to get all three of our cats neutered (my meows are getting so big!!), plus I still haven't received all the statements from the insurance companies about my surgery so I don't know if that was fully covered yet. In good news though, it looks like my insurance which I had originally thought was a craptacular policy covered $1200 of it but they said the anesthesia wasn't covered. Chris' insurance covered my crutches but I'm waiting to see if they cover the anesthesia bill and if now that will be almost $600 we will owe out.
Also in other news by some miracle Chris managed to get a couple of days for vacation for x-mas so we are going to NY (I guess I can stop calling his boss the grinch who stole x-mas now) but we will have to drive since we can't afford the $1,300 airfare to fly there. We are planning on taking the route through the states and stopping overnight in Erie, PA and then continuing on our merry way. Not fun to take a 13 hr trip with a toddler but we really have no choice. Well it is getting late and I have budgeting to do.

trudging along

So its been awhile since I updated. Chris and Chucky were gone for that last week in June then a week after they got home the in-laws came to visit. On the 17th of July I had surgery on my right foot (oh what fun!) and I didn't get off crutches until the first week of August. Right after I got off the crutches Chris' grandparents and Uncle Eric came to visit so it has been busy busy busy. Even though I took the entire summer off from school (because a- I needed a break and b- I still owed the college close to $2,o0o when summer session started and they don't let you start new classes when you owe them money) I haven't had much time for anything.
Now that my foot is in a bit better shape I can resume my getting ready for my huge yard sale which I am thinking I will have the weekend after labor day and getting ready for school to start again on Sept 20th (my dad's 67th b-day). I wish I had the energy to write more because Chris and I have really been trying to nail down some plans for our future and I've been thinking about a lot of things lately that I'd like to write down to clear my head but I just don't feel like doing it right now so a longer post will be be coming later.
Also I am trying to change my blog layout and for some reason it just isn't working and I don't feel like making my head explode trying to get it to.
Fiddle dee dee.

You Can Hear a Pin Drop

So its been tomb-like quiet here the past week since Chris and Chucky are in NY. I get to go pick them up at the airport tomorrow. They left last sunday and since about wednesday twice a day I have been getting calls from my little guy where he is wailing into the phone "Momma! I wanna come home! I miss you so much! Momma can I please come home?" It really makes me sad because this is only the second time my baby has been away from me for more than a day and last time they were only gone for four days. I wonder what I'm going to do when he's grown and gone away to college and the only calls I get are "Mom! Send money! I'm sick of eating ramen noodles!"
I am so tempted to just sit here and play on the internet for the afternoon BUT I have a ton of cleaning to do and I'm still sorting through our 500 tons of crap to see what I want to put in our yard sale which will be sometime after the inlaws go back to NY. I also have to go grocery shopping sometime this evening so we actually have food in the house when they get back.
I am so happy that they are coming back but it was a good thing they went because I was at the breaking point with the stress and Chris and I were at the point where we needed to get away from eachother for about a week.

My Furry Little Orphans

Okay these are our new additions to the family.

The first pic is my cat and his name is Oliver.

The second pic of the little tiger kitty by himself is my son's kitty and his name is Gilbert.

The 3rd pic is Oliver in the background and Gilbert's twin brother Stewie getting ready to take a poo. Aren't they precious?

So now I am outnumered 5 to 2 in my household. Me and my beagle Sammie are the only girls :-)

In the News

So I saw two things on the news tonight that caught my attention, one because I thought it was freakin' awesome and the other one because it made me sick to my stomach.
The first was about a 72 year old man who fought off his attacker while being pickpocketed at a convenience store in Grand Rapids. This dude (a former Marine) was almost 50 years older than the guy who was trying to steal his money yet he hauls off and slugs the guy upside the head like 6 times. That guy was arrested and he definitely got what he deserved. All I can say to that one is Semper Fi baby!

And the now for the thing that turned my stomach. In Kalamzoo they are considering charging a 13 year old boy as an adult for the severe beating of a toddler. Apparently this little 15 month old boy wandered away from his house and the 13 year old found him, took him into the woods and started beating him. The mother found them. I can't imagine what would have happened to that little boy had the mother not come in time. Now that little boy has cuts, bruises, permanent damage to one of his eyes and has tremors and nightmares all the time. Then the kid's lawyer gets on there and says "yes what he did was wrong but this is a 13 year old child and my job is to make sure the courts realize that" Well lady what about that innocent little baby that the 13 year old beat within an inch of his life? I hope they throw the book at that kid, try him as an adult and put him away for a long time. What kind of sick bastard beats up a baby? What the hell is going on in the world that parents produce kids that violent? The 13 year old should be thrown in jail and they should throw away the key and the mother should be sterilized so she doesn't produce any more sick fucks like the kid she already has. Maybe I feel so strongly about this because I am a mother and my son is close in age to the little boy that was beaten. I hope that my baby never encounters that kind of evil but rest assured if he does the case will never make it to court because I will have vengeance on the person who hurts my baby.

Okay enough of that. I had the day from hell today. I wake up this morning and go to take Sammie outside. I open the garage with the door opener, set it down and walk her outside. As I'm getting her food and water (halfway around the side of the house) I hear the garage door start closing. Mind you, I didn't unlock the house before I came out so the garage was my only way into the house. So I drop her dishes and run my ass off, diving under the door just in time to keep from being locked out of my house in my pajamas. I don't know if someone else around here is on the same frequency or if our garage door is just posessed but that really sucked. Then today at lunch I had to go to the post office to mail two books I sold. I'm walking towards the building minding my own business when I walk between two cars. Out of nowhere I here this loud growl and see something lunging at me from the car on my right. I screamed and dropped my stuff thinking I'm about to get eaten by a big frickin dog but when I turn around I see a lady pulling her growling snarling POODLE back into her car. She goes "sorry, he's not friendly" Oh really?! The fact that he tried to tear off my arm told me that! Why, if the dog is so viscious didn't she have the sense to roll up the window and turn the air on for the dog instead of leaving the window down so he can attack people? Some people are just plain stupid.
And here's one more for the just plain stupid file. After I get home from work my dad calls and asks if I can come over and type a letter for him that he needs to send to the VA. I say ok and jump in my car to go over there. I'm at a stop sign waiting to turn to the road that leads to my dad's house. I edge forward and I'm about to go but a UPS truck comes flying around the corner from the opposite direction at about 60 and I have to wait for it to go by. Apparently the dumb blonde on her PHONE didn't see me stop the second time and ass ended my car. Luckily other than a few surface scratches that can be buffed out there was no damage to my car. Hurray for the durability of the HHR! And one more thing to brighten my day. I come home and flip the computer on to realize I have no internet. I call Chris to ask him how to fix it and he walks me through it but I have to go downstairs and reset the modem. Well stupid me, I leave my bowl of soup that I just made sitting at my computer desk and when I come back up the bowl is tipped over and the soup is running all over my keyboard and my three darling cats are up there enjoying my dinner. (I swear I will make mittens out of all of them if they do it again). So, how way YOUR day???

The Answers my friend, are blowin' in the wind...

For those of you who know I'm a wrestling nut, I'm still trying to figure out the whole Chris Benoit killing his family and himself thing. It is a sad situation and I honestly don't know what to think. I loved Chris Benoit the wrestler. I think he was one of the best to ever step in the ring but what kind of demons must that man have been wrestling with to kill his wife and his innocent child?? I don't think the world will ever know and I don't think its something I will ever understand. I could never imagine harming one hair on my son's head let alone killing him. My heart goes out to the members of the Benoit family and I really hope they can find some peace after this tragedy.

So I am getting overwhelmed at work lately. I have to schedule appointments for people to update their HIV tests and physicals and dental exams so they will be medically deployable because our stats suck right now and its important that they are up to date on everything. I also have a mess of leave forms to get straight and a few things the Cdr wants me to do by friday so I've been gainfully employed all week. I also have alot to get done here at the house. My in-laws will be coming in three weeks and although my house is not a giant dirt ball, it is nowhere near my standard of clean. Chris and Chucky are visiting the family now so I'm trying to get it all done before they get back.
I am also taking a 6 week long break from school because mentally, I needed one. I have Business math and the American Novel as my next two classes which start August 2nd. The other reason I am taking the break is because I still have not received my Michigan Merit Award and I still owe half my tuition from spring quarter. Well I can't start any new classes until I get that paid off so I'm working on that too.
We're in a little bit of a rough spot right now. The pressure of our financial situation is making me feel like I'm in a room thats slowly running out of oxygen. Its nothing we can't bounce back from if we manage our money carefully enough but I am getting sick of having just enough to pay the bills. I would like to actually have money left over to go do something once in awhile or start investing in fixing up this house. Even if we don't stay here I need to at least start doing the things necessary to get it ready to rent or sell. I still don't know what we're going to do but I am holding to my decision not to make any moves until I'm done with school.
In other news I went to the dentist and found out I need to get a couple of wisdom teeth pulled AND I need braces on my bottom row AGAIN because the dentist who did my braces the first time screwed up and left a tooth in he shouldn't have and now my teeth on my bottom row are all pushed together. On top of that I went to see a podiatrist about my bunions and (lucky me!) he wants to remove both of them. So I am having surgery on my right foot on the 17th and when that one heals up I'll be having surgery on my left foot. So by the middle of next year my weight will be back to normal (12 lbs gone so far...) my feet will be fixed and my teeth will be too.
And finally I have adopted three furry orphans recently. We saw a stray orange cat over at my dads house that was really friendly. We were thinking about taking it home but we knew if we put it in the car it would freak out and shred the interior of the car so we decided not to take it. Dad's neighbor feeds it all the time so its kind of at home there. Well we decided that we'd look around and see if we could find another cat. We saw an ad in the Chronicle for free kittens and we called it. The guy still had all 3 kittens left because the boobs at the chronicle put his ad in the four wheel drives section instead of the pets section and we just happened to see it. We met him and his girlfriend in the parking lot of the N. Muskegon Meijers and he pulled the three cutest little kittens out of the carrier. Two of them were grey tiger cat twins and one was grey tiger with white patches. Chris liked the twins and I liked the other one and he kept hemming and hawing and wouldn't make up his mind. We felt bad about breaking up the twins and Chris didn't want the one I wanted so I ended up agreeing to give a home to two of the kitties and promised the couple that we would take the third one along and try to find a home for it since we lived in town and they lived out in farm country and no one was willing to drive out there to see the kitties. Well we got them home and now Chris refuses to get rid of any of them and I got sick of arguing with him so we now have three little kitties (all males). Chucky's cat is Gilbert, Chris' cat is Stewie and my cat is Oliver. So now we have one dog and three cats. Hurray for me and the hundreds of dollars I'll be spending on vet bills.

Jackasses...............

So I've been feeling like complete dooky all day today (thank you mother nature, I appreciate it). I took a nap when I got home and a little while ago Chris and Chucky went to bed. So at about 11:45 pm the phone rings and thinking that it may be an emergency situation (you know since Chris' great grandma just got out of the hospital and his brother is in Iraq and my dad is well.... my dad) I pick it up. The following conversation ensues:
ME: Hello?
Guy in a girls voice: Is Chris there?
ME: He's sleeping
Guy in a girls voice: Well tell him I love him to pieces and I really miss him
ME: (after silence) Hello?
Guy in girls voice: Hello? Um I have to go.

WTF? Who the hell would be a big enough jackass to call my house this late when everyone but me is sleeping pretending to be a girl when I can hear someone snickering in the background? Who does this crap?

Maybe I should have responded like this:

ME: Hello?
GIGV: Is Chris there?
ME: He's sleeping
GIGV: Well tell him I love him to pieces and I really miss him
ME (in hysterics): You sick bastard! I don't care what your ransom note says. I don't have the $500,000 before you'll return Chris to me now please stop cutting off his fingers and mailing them to me and just let him go!"

Or maybe I should have told them that Chris decided he was tired of the lie. Two weeks ago he packed up his clothes and most of mine too, changed his name to Christiana and left me a note telling me he was going to Vegas to pursue his dream of being a showgirl.

Anyway if you can't tell, I'm really tired which is when my imagination gets all bizarre like this. I still have to shower and let the mutts in. Hopefully phone idiot doesn't grace me with another call this evening.